i surrender all to you withholding nothing

Get any supplies you need to make sure you have one to two months at hand. I can’t explain, and wouldn’t break confidence if I could, however this is the alarm bell I’m hearing, and I’m passing it to you wholesale: But I don’t do well with time-sensitive things I can’t FIX.) (There might be a solution underway for that. Those of you who are in the diner on Facebook know there are personal factors at play too. However, right now, through two different fannish networks (MY fans, so people with real jobs, okay?) I’m getting the equivalent of “I am a thirty second bomb.” Add this to the supply issues, and the alarm is going off at the back of my head.

But I’m not even seeing that, in retrospect. Though to be fair, I did get a feeling it might be “the root cause” that happened that month. It might have been personal anxiety ramping things up. One of them was my conviction something would set something major off, in June of last year. From the mulcher, sometimes, at random, a certainty emerges. Anyway.) Throw it into the mulcher in back brain. Granted most of those was MSM, so the most I got was “that can’t be true.” It often wasn’t. I’d say the process is something like: Read everything (I have consumed 2 to 4 hours of “current events” every day for the last…. However I’m more accurate than mere chance warrants. I’m not infallible - by any means - partly because often what I “sense” coming is derailed by oh, law enforcement a sanity pill to the responsible on either side, etc. Most of the time - as with “covid-19 isn’t nearly as dangerous as we’re being sold” - I have to do a deep dive to figure out if they’re even justified. I have to explain first that I have no idea where my sudden insights come from, or my sudden certainties.

I surrender all to you withholding nothing